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Friday, July 11, 2008

Focus On The Positive, Because Anything Else Gets You Nowhere


I've come to the conclusion that I worry far too much about what other people think. I never thought of myself as one that would allow myself even five seconds wondering if someone or another thought about me. Well, I do. It's horrible and I am ashamed. It is understandable that we all think about other's opinions at times, especially if we are making a decision that will affect someone else. However, dwelling on anything of no particular importance is not only a waste of time but hinders my growth as a woman.
I can say that I have grown a lot in these last years since high school. High school can be a very trialing time, where one is constantly onstage and becomes a slave to other people's opinions. Yes, I have grown from there. What troubles me, is I feel as if I have fallen back into that dreadful groove of over analyzing. I tend to worry about what I am wearing and whether or not it makes me look fat. I worry far too much about my hair, so much that I choose not to ride my bike to work because I will consistently have a bad hair day. Pathetic? Um, yes!
It seems though, I worry a great deal on what other's are saying behind my back, especially in my state these days. I also dwell on whether or not my life looks ideal. Really pathetic? Very much!!!
So, what can be done to counteract these feelings of inadequacy? Let it go. Sure, easy enough. Okay, I'm cured. Moving on to the next dramatic area of my life. Actually, it's not so easy.
Funny thing is there are certain people that I could care less about and they could actually say the most wretched things about me. I don't care about them. Maybe I just worry about those that I care about? No, not entirely true. There are people that I haven't seen in years and have had no contact with, and I care what they may say. So what's the big deal?!
When will I once and for all, just be happy with who I am? I will know then that no matter what anyone says to me or about me would have no consequence for me. When does that day come?
For now I guess I will try my hardest not to let things bother me and continue what I am doing in my life that makes me happy. Curt always says to focus on the positive, because anything else gets you nowhere.

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